it was that one day when i first met her,
she has this real happy face.
then later the days has passed by,
the happiness i used to see has started to fade away.
i did not pity her because she said she didn't want it,
but i helped her because she needed it.
through all these times when we're not together,
i am always worried about her.
knowing people don't know how to treat her good,
and make her ending up looking like a fool.
she is no fool but she is weak,
and now she has reached her highest peak.
she is tired now of all those pain and depression
and did what i never thought she would...

what had gone wrong my babe?

she is not who she used to be anymore,
and her pretty smile has vanished into the thin air
she now wears a mask everywhere,
and now people thinks she's stronger.
no she is not...she is still weak,
and has already reached her highest peak.
no one is ever there to help her,
so she takes the hardest way out...

what had gone wrong my babe?


sorry walang kwenta tong sinulat ko.

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

things i used to do before which i dont do these days:

-watch a lot of local and cable channels on tv
-listening to the radio
-mtv
-reading novels
-buying magazines
-buying cd's
-boyhunting
-eating before going to sleep


things i have been doing

-playing badminton
-updating my blog
-taking lots of pictures
-drawing (malamang!)
-working out
-watching lots of movie
-going out of the house with friends
-talking on the cellphone (kasi libre na eh!)
-wearing skirts when im in the mood
-going online a lot than i used to
-spending on things

wala lang, halatang bored hehe

-matatapos ko ba ang 40 sketches by monday?!
-ang iksi naman ng xmas break ko leche!
-gusto ko lumabas kaso wala akong sasakyan wwhhhaaaa
-im so tamad!!!
-bored narin kasi wala akong kausap...nasan ba kayo mga hayop?!
-i want ice cream but i have sore throat again nyahahaha
-sana matutuloy ang canada trip!
-shet malapit na ang mid terms...shet...study time again
-why the hell no body is texting me right now?!
-paano kaya ako pupunta kila soleil sa thursday..hhmmmm..wala parin akong sasakyan kasi
-ano kaya pwede kong i-drawing ngayon na madali?
-wala parin ang tuta! tagal!!
-the hell why patrick is taking a long time to call me back hmp! tampo nako sa kanya
-'do you have to be blind to go on a blind date?' nyahahahaha
-'nakita mo na ba ang bahay ni stevie wonders?' "hindi pa," 'siya narin, hindi pa' LOL
-ako lang nasa bahay ngayon!
-i want twister fries from mcdonalds...and mcflurry too...and cheeseburger...okay shutting up na...pati narin coke light please!
-baket ba mga pogi na nakikita ko sa labas ay palaging bading? tulad ni piolo pascual nyahaha
-one plus one is not two..it's eleven!
-i miss you! *wink wink*

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Nina
2. Anna
3. Nins

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. girldevil
2. amalthea
3. aniraz

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. (kapal mode) cuz im pretty
2. i dunno what else is there for me to like about myself
3. artistic!

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. sensitive
2. being stubborn
3. laziness

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. mind
2. heart
3. self

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the bad thing that can happen to me
2. getting hurt
3. hurting the people i love and care about

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. food
2. music
3. chat

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. shirt
2. short
3. underwear

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. guster
2. third eye blind
3. dave matthews band

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. never saw blue like that
2. all my life
3. brick

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. secret!
2. secret!
3. secret!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. honesty
2. trust
3. of course love haha

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (no particular order)
1. i smoke
2. i drink
3. i had sex whahahaha

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. smile
2. eyes
3. figure

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. table soccer
2. be insenstive
3. be mean

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. drawing
2. reading
3. swimming

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. get out of the house
2. smoke
3. paint

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. artist
2. pyschologist
3. teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. canada!
2. australia
3. basta san ang mga friends ko, masaya na ako

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. poiu
2. kuhaluma
3. drathoire

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. travel around the world.
2. have sex with a famous person nyahahahaha
3. go to the moon

to gian,

you're so unbelievable and unpredictable!!

nothing to do right now, i would have watched tv but i don't watch tv that much anymore. yeah yeah i'm missing out a lot but i don't care. i was supposed to go out at this time with my brother but it was cancelled. oh well.

these are some thoughts that i have been questioning myself:

-if i had not broken up with my boyfriend back in first year highschool, i wondered what the difference would have been until now.

-if i had not gotten sick when i was still baby and lost part of my hearing, would i be still the same person i am now?

-what happened if i went to an all girl school instead?

-what if i wasn't pretty?

-wondering what turning point can change my life

-the worst thing that can ever happen to me in my life...which is going to come and no one can save me. (drama lol and also being pessimistic)

-can i change my fate?

-who knows me as i know myself?

-what do i have that made guys attracted to me? (not being kapal, just curious...)

-why oh why do these kind of things keep happening to me?

hay, as far as i noticed, they seem to be pessimistic thoughts or questions, i can't just help but question them even if i can't find the answers to those. i try to be optimistic but really, is there a person in the whole world who is never a pessimistic?

i do not like you,
why don't you leave me alone?
you're nothing to me,
so plain boring and stupid.

i do not like you,
why don't you ignore me?
you're so bothersome,
so annoying and irritating.

i do not like you,
why don't you just forget about me?
you're not worth my time,
so useless and nothing.

i do not like you because,
you're always jealous
always pretending to be funny
always trying to be so cool
giving your money to me
trying so hard
insisting to pick and drop me off at my place
and you're not being who you are.


wala lang, inis lang ako sa guy nito hehehe

i just got home and it's pretty unusual for me to come home this late when i'm out with my friends. i went to enchanted kingdom then tagaytay. i only asked permission to go to ek but not for tagaytay cuz if i did, they won't let me go. so there...sneaking haha! im not always a good girl, mind you

anyways, i had fun and i like the way i can be sort of a 'rebel' at times, oh yeaaahhhh!!! hhmmmm when's the next time i can sneak again? it's fun though and i just hope i won't get caught next time or ever!

why comfort her but not me?
why is it easier to understand her more than me?
what does she have that i don't have?
does she give you everything you need and want?
does she satisfy you?
why her but not me?
did not i give you everything you needed before?
did i not love you enough?
what went wrong?
why her but not me?
why do you spend all your time thinking about her
as well as always hanging out with her?
i am not jealous..i just want to know why...
why her but not me?